I wish I never had a “turtle day.” I feel like I’ve had two of them in a row, and the timing couldn’t be worse. But wait…first I should explain just what a “turtle day” is! It’s the kind of day when I feel like I should just pull my head inside my shell, and hide for awhile. Because typically, on “turtle days,” my words don’t come out right, and my thoughts feel a little more all-over-the-map than usual. So basically, I feel sorry for anyone stuck in a conversation with me…because frankly, I’m not enjoying listening to “me” either! It happens when I least expect it. And when it does? It can really rob me of my confidence, and make me feel like the shy little girl I was growing up.
Okay, so now you know what a “turtle day” is. So, back to WHY this is such a bad time for me to have two days in a row of “turtility” (the RB word for turtle futility from trying to make sense…but instead, sounding pretty senseless)! The reason is we’re spending the next few days in meetings with people from all over the United States. They’re people who I love and respect…and who I would love to have some meaningful conversations with. I think they’d like that…I know I’d like that. So what’s a turtle…I mean a girl…to do? I need to remind myself to get over myself…to not worry about what I’ll say. But to just be me…word slips, Renee-isms, and all! To not let myself play it safe, and just do a lot of smiling. But to come out of my shell and talk…as best as I can!
So I don’t know if I’ll wake up feeling turtley tomorrow morning or not. But what I do know is that I can only be me…I’m going to give it my best…but now, I better go get some rest!!
Luke 18:14 MSG ~ If you walk around with your nose in the air, you’re going to end up flat on your face, but if you’re content to be simply yourself, you will become more than yourself.”
In His Love,
Pastor Tim Burt
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